Dear diary, ..... I had two bad nightmares last night...And I nearly cried when I woke up.
This is what I remember..
I had angel wings and would fly around this college like building. It was a big place though and I felt happy just flying and landing everywhere. And this surprised people because I was "different". I told them, "I'm not really an angel. I'm a lechiun." and they stared at me awestruck. To those that don't know what a lechiun is basically i would look like an elf with blue skin, white hair, blue or gold eyes...and I might have a tail or strange ancient markings. My ears might be pointed or not. Lechiun's are powerful "mind" creatures way beyond one that has telekinesis and what not and have many small hearts.
Anyways..all they know is that in my dream I am the last of my kind. And I time travel a lot so they think that I am very old. Well I left from there and I was with three people..all guys. I was in this room and then one of them that I barely know from work started walking up to me with this look on his face. Then the other two behind him followed and I started to get scared so I backed away and then he starts puckering up his lips trying to kiss me. But when he saw my look he felt rejected and stopped..dang I was really scared >_>...
Then another dream I had I was on this ship. I went into another part so that I wouldn't be alone because they were about to lock me out..And keep in mind I've never been inside a big ship before so I don't know what the heck it's supposed to look on the inside so my mind basically filled in the blanks. I was in a room were there was water in the bottom on the other side. And at the bottom were these propellers and grinders..oh gods it's just horrible. And right above I saw these bodies hanging over on table supports..It was like this part was the medical side of the ship because on the other side of the big room they were doing surgery on someone..And healers were on standby. Then the ship started springing a few leaks..>_> The first leak I sealed up with magick using equivalent exchange so therefore I got cuts all over my arms. Then a co worker I know from work came in the room and was expressing how he felt about me..Ahem...awkward...I mean he's cute and all..and has a great personality..and he's awesome..but..I am really interested in someone else at the moment and that person that I am interested in I feel loyal to.
So..this guy from work hugs me from behind. He tries to kiss me which I reject and another guy one of the healers laughs and says, "oh don't worry, she'll open up someday..she's just got lots of 'attachements' right now." And I kinda craned my head just to stare at him... -.- And left it at that....
Then suddenly the ship starts tilting forward and I notice htere is a leak on the other side where that water is at already..and the water is trying to rise. I'm trying to repair that and seconds later something breaks and screws start flying around and water rushes in from the other side. -.-...
It was too effing late...we were all gonna die and the dang ship tilted forward all the way while I tried making repairs. I held onto the rail trying to pull myself back up and everyone starts falling.. O..m...effin g... -.-
I start panicking as everything is filled up in water now. And everyone is swimming around. Then I feel poking in my sides and know that it's the co worker...because he likes to poke my sides in real life >_> a lot...and all the while..I'm trying to think of a way to magickally conjure something up so that he can breathe in the water because I can already breathe in water..so I'm worried about him. Then we start swimming to the bottom and let me remind you that even if the ship is practically upside down and he thinks that we are swimming to the top AWAY from the proppellers and grinders..psh...we aren't. No sir...we the hell are NOT. We are swimming towards the stupid flipping propellers and he doesn't know that my ABILITY jacks crap up when I get scared so ..yeah...I kept tugging on his hand trying to get him to swim another way but noooooo he thinks he knows what he is doing. Psh..before we got there to feel all that pain I woke my butt up... -.- Worst dream...EVER
Very interesting dreams / nightmares, Lechin. I'm not one for interpreting dreams, but here are some impressions I've picked up re what might be going on. Having angels' wings and being able to fly around means you can "astral travel" while sleeping. Being on a ship probably represents the Ship or Journey of Life. You feel you have healing ability and the need to take charge of situations. Nevertheless, just now, you are a little bit overwhelmed by responsibilities laid on you. The ship springing leaks represents a certain anxiety about things getting beyond your control. Re unwanted attention from co-workers (males), and somebody saying "you'll open up someday", possibly means just that. There is a sense of anxiety and the need to hold everything together, as if you have to be in control or things will fall apart. Maybe it's asking you to have a little more trust that everything will be okay, if you just let it be! As the psychics always say: "Does that make any sense to you?!"
Cheers, dear Lechin!
Last Edit: May 10, 2013 22:46:04 GMT -1 by Whisker
Thank you for the insight Whisker! Yes I know your right about being able to astral travel while sleeping. It happens a lot but I never know where I am at or when it is happening. Mmm I don't know about the ship part though. I mean we were underwater and all in the ocean. I think the ocean might represent a big fear I have or something because the sea animals are so violent and scary...And I can never open my eyes to look around..that's how scared I am.
*Giggles* I don't know about the healing ability though..Hmm..makes me kind of think but yes I do have anxiety problems though. I have the disorder but I don't have the meds because I told the doctor that I am able to control it myself. Besides I really dislike medicine period. My body is sensitive to that stuff.
But yes your interpretations make a lot of sense to me. Thank you. You have a good night too!
I don't like taking meds either! I may start, but never finish them. I'd much prefer to make sure I am taking in good nutritious food that has all the vitamins and minerals I need to stay healthy in mind and body. I don't think taking meds is any good answer to anxiety. It's better to look within and try to find the root of the anxiety. Was there maybe too much expected of you when you were younger, and now you have a fear of failing or not living up to expectations? When people put too much demands on us, it's usually for selfish motives, to fulfill a need in themselves, while not paying attention to the real people we are - and what our real needs and abilities are. Pay attention to what you want, not what you need to do in order to satisfy other people's expectations.
Last Edit: May 10, 2013 23:30:59 GMT -1 by Whisker
I only finish meds if I have to..Like if I have strep throat. >_>; Well it's just that people expect me to be a certain way...and give me sh*t just because I'm different from them. Also I've been worried about how my life is going to go. I've been trying to make money ,pass my classes and what not. I tend to worry about a lot of things..
if you focus more on what you are doing in the present, you won't need to worry about the future. Only what's happening now is real. The future has not happened. You know the song - Don't worry! Be happy! I'm off! Have a good night, Lechin.